So, I was on school holidays for two weeks and the whole holidays I’ve tried to forget the past and live in the present and be happy but I’ve failed miserably. Today was when we all go back to school but I just couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed and go. It’s so hard. All my year 8 ‘friends’ don’t even speak to me anymore, my friend over the holidays broke off our friendship and it’s going to be so hard to each day walk past her and well, pretend we were never friends. :( I wish we were still friends, every single day. And everyday, once again, I have to fake a smile to everyone when really I just want to break down.
Also, these few days have been terrible I’ve broke down cause I’ve had enough..

- are you an angel?

- What?

- my mum told me that those who have marked wrists are angels.

- I’m not an angel.

- of course you are. Mum said that only angels harm themselves because they don’t like life on earth. This world is destroying them so they try return to heaven again. They are too sensitive to the pain of others and their own.

- You know, your mum is very wise.

- thank you. She is also an angel but she has already returned home.

- I’m fine. (I’m not fine. Please help me.)
- I’m just tired. (I can’t take this anymore.)
- I already ate. (I starve myself.)
- go away. (Show me you care enough to stay.)
- I’m just cold. (I don’t want you to see my scars.)
- I’m better, I promise. (I’ve never been this bad.)
- I’m okay. (I just want to die.)